Time To Say Goodbye

Thursday, December 10, 2009

alrights im going off to serve the nation tmr:) so heres some goodbye msges to all who have impacted me, you may or may not read my blog but yea hope the msg gets to you somehow:P
NOT IN ANY ORDER OF WHATSOEVER
oh and it has come to my attention that my blog skin is becoming empty for some reason, no worries ill change it soon:P when i book out
1. CRYSI-Z
thanks you guys for being such good bros for sooo long, you guys made sec sch a whole lot easier and seeing that we are frm MSHS that says ALOT thanks for all the times we shared tgt:)
Cheang- thanks for being there and caring bro, helping me with pullups and stuff :) glad to have you in CJ
Ryan- dude thanks for being a great listener and really hope that you find love soon one day:) thanks for the laughs we shared and all the video game talks:P U rock my world bro! go NINJA MAFIAS! anw yea lar weve know each other so long, thanks for sticking even if im an ass at times:)
YuChen-wait.... thats me
Simon(renyi)-haha its really hard to watch a movie and not think abt your behavior when we watch movies:P srlsy man u tighten the bond within us, always insisting in makign our grp merchandise and stuff, hope you find love too:P
I-Zack- THE MAN! hope your love gets better in time:) thanks for being cool and bring the exitment to the grp. im sure we all agree you bring the most heat and action to us:P you are truly the chosen one:) oh and yea thanks for the time we jam tgt and maroon 5 concert:)
2T28
whoo, its been a short 2 years with you guys:) short 2 years filled with good and bad, both of which i will rmbr for life, i know i dont get along with all of you but yea all of you impacted me in some sort of way somehow lar
Bra Boys
thanks for all the adult humor shared;) haha and all the lan games and all the dota matches and just that whole lot of fun that made my JC life worth it YEA FEAR MY STEALTH ASSASIN!
Sean- lol thanks for the dota coaching and being so friendly, sleep more pls you better be well rested for the next overnight lan:P yea and really had fun with you, talking cock and all that weird stuff:) have you watched the new derrrick video?????
Matt- bro thanks for being such a bro and a great friend, for being caring and supportive of all that we do:P although sometimes you give weird advice or say something really wrong haha you still rock bro! hope your love loves you back soon:) good luck and dont watch so much porn! XD
Gabs- firstly hope your love loves you back soon too:) and thanks for all the fun and games and all your obscene innuendo comments:) they really made me laugh like hell:) thanks for being such a nice guy and all your BAKED GOODS! no apple pie though;)
4 of you better give me a better lan party next time XD no more pennusilar as sean said:P
Jonathan- dude thanks for being so cool and taking so much pics for the class:) hope you end up somwhere succesful soon you smart guy:) wish you and Jacq happy forever:)
Ben- Bro! thanks for being such a caring and thoughtful dude:) haha and all the dota fun we've had! haha thanks for managing the accounts of our class too i know its quite stressful at time:) thanks for going thru all that!
Edmund- haha i think its safe to say, many of our class activities like e chalet, bbq etc would not have happend w/o you, it wld have just stayed as plans in ppls heads:) so thanks for all the laughs we shared and all the time we spent:) and organizing all sorts of events for us:)
CY- yoyo the guy with opp initials:) thanks for the funny jokes, or comments you've said, and uve been such a nice guy and gentlmanly im sure many agree through out these 2 years:) wish you the best of luck in all you do :)
Russ- yo thanks for being such a cool dude:P and a guy whom we can safely share adult jokes with:P and yea youve been a really nice guy too:p and we're a good team with my SA and ur Tidehunter:p anw good luck in the commandos:)
Second row peeps:P going by old class arangment ah!
Karyn- thanks for being such a nice person and fun to talk too, stop sleeping so much:p hmm oh and yea its been great having you in the class:p
Jacq-haha thanks for the good times we had in J1 year playing mahjong and stuff:p and prank calling nick with BenXD hahaha wish you happy with jon forever:p
Queenie- haha thanks for the talks we had, which were great fun, esp that time you kept tyring to guess where i was going ev thu:P hahaha, yups its been good knowing you:)
Jess T- whooo fast runner, haha thanks for being cool even though we always tease you abt being James and abt you know the guy sitting next next to me:p keep running:)
Michelle- thanks for being such a easy person to talk too:p having you in the gp grp was fun esp with all your fun comments Take care:)
JessV- thanks for all your art work and always having you draw stuff for the class haha keep drawing!
Jolene- Yo always sit same bus as you one:P thanks for talking with me on e busXD it gets preety boring aft awhile:P yups
Andrea- hey PW mate, thanks for putting in so much effort into our PW, although its not the grade we wanted, i really enjoyed the process with you guys:P it was great fun and screw the examiners lar, we produced an A project:P anw all the best to you:p
1st row!
Eileen- haha, it was really great fun to have you in the class, you bring the fun in:) alwasy suggesting class chalets and class trips and stuff:) w/o you i think my JC life will be kinda boring, oh btw did u return my shirt? i can find itXD yups thanks for alll the fun times weve had badminton pool and everything lar!
JoJo- Yo! it has been a pleasure knowing you, although sometimes ur quite fierce on the outside:P but yups thanks for being a nice person to me:) play mahjong that time take same tiles as me ah:P haha
Dan- Hello:P haha sorry bout the ugly unicorn:P anw thanks for managing all the class admin stuff, and a whole lot of other class stuff:P anw it was great fun knowing you:P take care:)
Ken-whoo thanks for being a great bio rep:) and all the good times we had in class:P best of luck:)
Yun Feng- thanks for being so cheerful and optimistic all the time and totally hyperactive. haha tone it down abit eh:P anw yups it was great having you in the class, if not teachers will call my name more often if not for you always answering qns:p anw yea thanks for being a nice person as well:)
Julia- yo! i know you exactly like me in J1 haha i apologize for tht, but this year was great fun:P like the bus rides home and stuff:P yups:) hope you end up somwhere succesful soon:P
Sandra- Hey:) thanks for all the good times we've had, we havent talked in awhile, dunno if ur angry at me or sth and im really sorry bout tht, but anyway, remeber what i promised:P im always ur fren:) thanks for being such a good friend as well:) stay happy:)
Olivia- HTC!!!!! thanks for being such a great HTC and a great friend to have, having you in pw was fun, u hyperactivness brought up the grp moral all the time, thanks for all the encoragment uve given the class and me esp that time for my pull ups:P sian only reach 4-5, did u reach 1??? haha
whoo i thinks thats all the students in 28
Mr Wong- thanks for putting up with the class:P dont worry ure a good teacher:) im sure you will get even better in time:) anyway also thanks for being so anal abt stuff, i think it srslry jumped my gp grade by at least 2, and thanks for beliving in my abilities:P
Mrs Tie- thanks for being so patient with me:) i know im not exactly the best student to teach:P always so lazy, thanks for all the effort you put in, i really hope my results will reflect that:) thanks for all the advice uve given us as well:P
Mr Teo- Dude you bring bio back into my life:) tahnks for all the great advice uve given us and all the extra material u made for us:P and being such a cool teacher all along:P lets go play Lan somedayXD all the best!

Fencers!
haha its been really really fun training with you guys:P if i dont mention your name, pls dont be offended:P i cherish everymoment of training and fun and competition and fighting along side you guys:P it was really really a fun time:) you fencers rock my world:)
Team Kong Ba Pao!
Sai- lol thanks for being such a nice dude, and all ur fun shit we did, including 'who poop last!' hahah yea its been great knowing you u taiwan bro! haha i cant rmbr anytime with you i dint laugh out uncontrollbly or seemed gay?
Gy- lol thanks for being so cool when we called you gay... even though you are kinda... nah im kidding haha thanks for being a good friend and good fencing with you:P haha srlsy cant think of a time which we spent tgt and dint seem gay at all XD lol yups lan soon taiwan bro!
Tudor- hmm stop listening to so much metal, its spoiling ur brain!!!!! haha thanks for being so cool with us even though we sometimes make fun of you:P haha u take care bro u romanina bro!
Captains
Bjorn- haha really fun with you being our captain:P thanks for leading us well and being such a good friend, oh and the great fun we had eating at the AMK food court everytime aft training:P
Meagan- thanks for being another good captain:P always encouraging us:P you small but fierce fencer:P
the rest
ROY- you crazy dude haha thanks for always sharing ur really lame jokes which some really make me laugh, and all the really gay momentsXD POPCORN BRO!
Edwin- haha thanks for being so cool even though sometimes im being an ass with you:P french grip FTW! yups and all the good times we shared at selangor:P gay again.... srlsy is fencing a gay CCA or what? gay sex?
Li Fang- thanks for being a great younger sis and all the advice uve given me (lol sai this part for you too) thanks for always listen to me talk abt my stuff, like which girl is hot or pretty or that kind of weird shit:P haha wishing both of you happy tgt forever:)
Nicole- haha thanks for being so hyper active! really fun having u in the team, selangor with you was fun..sort of luh:P beside me effin headache:P
Chermaine- thanks for being so cool bus buddy:) haha you light up my day if u take same bus cuz ull say something weirdly funnyXD anw yups thanks for the gal advice and stuff too:P good luck chasing korean stars!
to the rest- ahhh so many of you and so many ppl to thank, srlsly lar all in all thanks for the good times even though sometimes training is tough, i really enjoyed it with you guys:)
Meng- haha thanks for teaching me the soul underhand and being such a cool senior, u inspired a new batch of french gripped fencers! haahah meet up soon leh u nv reply one:(
Yukari- haha thanks for coaching me, i know im difficult but you are a great coach! haha hope you're doing well, oh and thanks for listening to me talk abt stuff too;)
Coach- thanks for being like a father to us all:) ur advise rules:P sorry i cant go back fence lately
:( i really want to, thanks for coaching me for the A divs as well:P made it to the top 8 prob wldnt even made the team if not for you:)
Are you looking for you in all of this? you special special girl! hee, when i said order dosent matter i lied, i saved the best for last(not that the first was worst my crysi-z buds)
Celine Leong Shu Yi- hmmm i really liked you... now i really love you:) sigh, please take care of yourself when im gone, and remeber your promise:) im really okay if you want to okay? thanks for being such a great girlfriend:) i love you so much^^ and all the great memories we've had. sorry for always making u angry with my computer games XD anw im really gna miss you:( ur the thing i cant let go off the most:P Kalor better protect you when im gone:P yea anyway ill be back soon luh:P 2 weeks only:) you take care kay?
i love you<3
Posted by 火 at 6:00 PM

Clothes, Fried Chicken and Pretzels:)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

today was a fun day:) i had lotsa fun shopping with my princess Celine today:D although we were supposed to cycle, walking arnd tampinies one with her turned out to be super fun as well:P (esp when she tried on a hoodie thinking it was for adults when it was actually for children) hahaha
anw i think im actually starting to like shopping:) its kinda fun when its with her, well everything is fun with her actually^^
she chose a shirt for me which when i tried it on think it looks actually kind of great:) see! told you im begginging to like shopping:P

anw, been playing lotsa games lately, its as if exams have ended...wait it has! haha anw yea hanging out with the dudes and dotaing with the crowd srsly feel so liberated:)

kinda worried bout results but for now im just gna enjoy the time i have:)

im such a lucky lucky guy^^
well its off to dota again!
Posted by 火 at 10:06 PM

why don't you do your best?

Saturday, November 21, 2009

okay this isnt exactly the post i had in mind for a comeback post:P so yea Li Fang its not the post i was mentioning abt:p that epic post will come later just need to blow some steam off here:P

anw ive been asking myself that qn for like my whole life.. kinda sad right? my whole life i havent done my best..

haha OKAY so fine this video is really quite exaggerated haha but it used to be my fav show haha cldnt find other clips of the show that show Ueda's(the best man) trade mark line("why dont you do your best?" often time Ueda will add a sharp "YOU!" before he says it it was hilarious!) but yea this was all i cld find... haha Ueda says it better than Yamada(the girl lar) haha if you have time go watch the show its called 'Trick' its really nice humour tied in with mystery often relating to paranormal but then it can be explained logically haha basically they just go arnd debunking urbun legends.. anw

YOU! WHY DONT YOU DO YOUR BEST?

Posted by 火 at 7:11 PM

why do we regret?

Friday, October 30, 2009

yea why?
i know the consequence of not doing well
my life hangs on the line already
why do i still have this attitude?
Teo said: "in this 2 weeks... you will constanly ask yourself, 'why am i working so hard?'"
but im asking myself,"why am i not working hard?"
and i know im gna regret i know it, why am i so silly?
its a simple concept study hard and get your As, for me i know its as simple as that,
for a boy with such clear ambition why is he not working hard at it?
Teo gave me the best reason to work hard? why am i not?
why isnt the sheer fear of the impending doom not motivating me?
why do i regret everynight asking why i wasted the day away?
am i afraid that if i work hard and do badly i will feel stupid?
am i buying insurance such that if i do badly i can blame it on not working hard?
...talking with sean today, i wonder how we wld survive in another country, would we be better off? is singapore really taht limited oppurtunity?
or does the fundemental problem lie....within us?
we know, we said today and we know its true...we are smart enough we know we aint dumb, we know if we worked hard we cld get As easily... but why arent we?
how long more can we put our life on hold?
isit cause we take things for granted?
rmbr my sec 4 POP leaving speech... i told my juniors never to do anything they wld have to regret... what am i doing now?
hmmm 1 week more
i know it, if i put in 100 % i know I know i can get A, cuz its not that i dont understand...its about not enough practise...not enough content
maybe its cause i havent seen life yet... maybe all i have said about knowign how the world works was just a naive view like the frog in the well who belives the sky is so small....
i need to get out of the well
time to work hard...
prove all those ppl rong
im like a guy who can catch a bullet but is just too lazy to raise his hand, he knows where the gun is he knows where the bullet is going to end up
but he wont do a thing
sucide?
or cause he dosent know what death is?
im like a guy who can see the future, he sees impending doom, but he decides to do nothing about it,
sucide?
or just cause he plain dosent care?
already done so much in my life i regreted, but this time i cant, no more chances i regret now i regret my whole life....
i need to shark 5 Aces
Posted by 火 at 9:37 PM

It's peanut butter jelly time!

Monday, September 28, 2009

lol prelims is what happened before my family was here its an event that happen very long time ago haha anw just here too announce that blogging frequency will go down by alot(not that its very high to begin with) but yea haha gonna work hard srlsy for As alr haha
ITS PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY WITH A BASEBALL BAT!
hahaha
anw yea i had a great birthday:) it was the best:) love e bear bear:P
anw im addicted to this korean song called love really hurts by yesung:P haha the piano super nice haha although the song is like opposite of what im feeling haha i cant understand it anw:P the song i mean anw yeap see you kids next time:P WORK HARD!
Posted by 火 at 4:45 PM

pre-prelims

Saturday, September 19, 2009

heh yup prelims are over, heh okay lar not so bad haha we shall see heh
anw few things that happend before prelims:P
RENYI's BDAE BASH! haha we taupoked him outside the cinema manXD

yea dude!
and MUGFEST2009! where CYRSI-z meets up and mug and phails to concentrate!
CRYSI-Z mugfest! where we go out and mug ppl:P
NOT MUGGING
heh pizza after mugging dudes:P

SAI VANDALIZE MY TABLE SO I TOOK REVENGE:P
anw my mum went to taiwan and brought back lots of food!
mum cameback from taiwan and brought sausages... LOTS OF IT
Sausagefest!
SO AFTER PRELIMS POST PRELIMS
ystd
went to eat lunch with some of 2t28 plus Yun Fengs boyfriend XD
haha anw at ashtons:P anyone want to see what the newyork strip is?

YEA! 28!

hmmm i look like im sleeping or really concerned abt the bill
anw went to lan after that with e guys haha YEA GOT MY Stealth Assasin skills back! haha 16 kills and only 1 death... 1 death cuz i not paying attention and ran into the opponents fountain when tryin to purchase a healing salve from the enemy shop:P

today!
haha today was super fun, I-Z from CRYSI-z came to my house and we played lots of music haha we recored some stuff too haha his song super nice man haha then we did an impromptu song haha XD its called CRYZI-Z FOR THE WIN and its like super funny haha cuz we just sing what came to mind XDXD its FIVE MINS!
~YC: its been almost 2 years since we ate at the canteen
I-Z: (SUCKY FOOD!)
YC: oh yea oh yea i miss the uncle with the ice cream!~
~now everything is so diffrent, a girl actually likes Ryan~ XD
CRYSIZ FOR THE WIN!
studying alot with the worlds most perfect girl during the Hols to

one of life's sweeter moments:D
for once in my life im actually REALLY looking forward to my birthday
okay Li Fang i update alr... haha you never update urs:P
WORK HARD TO THOSE WHO STILL HAVING PRELIMS:P
A LEVEL IS IMMINENT! BE READY!
i shld carry a sign and stand a the corner of the street saying THE A IS NEIGH!
(it would be more funny if i took N LEVELS)
Posted by 火 at 9:17 PM

Reflection

Thursday, August 13, 2009

okay.. today's post is gna be just some random thoughts and stuff cuz im really bored and taking a break from bio:P

hmmm
when i ask people of my age what they want to do in the future, the response comes back preety much the same "see how lor, do finish a level then talk" very few like me have a clear line of ambition, well not really a clear one but a general direction if you will, for me the end has to be clear cause i see no point in working towards a vague future. right now in these last few months before the big examinations jc students everywhere scrambling and mugging, for what? for a good uni spot, but the thing is they dont even know what they want. but society here pushes you to mug and work hard, it pushes you to compete with your peers you have to, or your future is going to be bleak, if you get into a bad uni course your life is gonna suck. can you see how ridiculous that sounds? how many people in the world make careers without uni or even high school certifications? what it takes is brains and eyes... look at our world.. look at it closer, filled with lies, cover ups and propaganda. i look around and see many stupid followers in our world, marionettes pulled by strings, i can see what the band: the killers are trying to say in their song "human" are we human or are we dancer? why do we work so hard? we're not even sure what we want, sure a degree is important, and yes not limiting your choices is a good thing but what i cant stand is the message that everyone seems to be getting: pass As or your life will be hell.
society is a selection pressure where only the fittest survive, and to survive you gotta play by the game, what many dont know is there are hidden rules, what you see is not what you get, they will throw you every example to prove their point, but in reality how many of such do you get? im sick and tired of society's direction, doing things for the sake of being safe, the way i see it we're a bunch of cowards not willing to take a leap, a leap of faith. playing things safe like that would get us somewhere. sigh, the trap of being in singapore. a bunch of cowards...
of course i might not know better but still..
my goal has been clear since i was sec 1, i knew what i wanted, cause even at the age of 13 i saw the world for what it was, i saw human beings for what they were. violent, selfish and vile creatures, we always distinct ourselves from animals, but in the end we're preety much simmilar at the end of the day, our desires gets the better of us and we give in to the animal inside, human beings are capable of anything to fufill that desire. there was nothing wrong with that, but humans created the right and the wrong, many just stick to it no distinction between morals and ethics doing every "right" thing because we are afraid, of our god of the law of what people think of us. but right or wrong is never there, its just a fabrication by our leaders past and present so that we may be brought into order. but whe one is pushed everything is capable. because in fact our capacity to do bad things is not gone, its just supressed by fear, given the right catalysts humans are recipe for murder, rape, theft and anything undersun that is bad, note that there is good and bad, justice and injustice, but right or wrong...its just our own perception of those 4 things muddled by external influences. A lion kills another lion for competition of territory and food and mates, humans used to do that but everything i said above has stopped us from doing that... but are we still capable? yes, underneath our extirior lies the animal instinct to get what they want with whatever it takes or die trying, humans are just bad cookie doughs moulded in to a attractive delicious looking shape, but humans differ from animals with one point... choice, whether we retain that mould before the cookie bakes is up to us, a life time in the oven every single person has a choice, to stick to the status quo and just maintain the so called right or break out of it and retain their animal instincts, its a tough choice for many, i agree but we still have a choice, and at the end of the day when someone is found dead, that person is someone's husband/wife, son/daughter/ someones friend and someone is responsible.. this is injustice...for life is just a vicious cycle, sooner or later what goes around comes around, and im the person who wants to bring this cycle around to restore justice to the innocent. Im not for the right or for the wrong.. i just want to monitor the cycle, make sure good is balacned with bad because the world we're living in now aint so bad and someone shld be there to punish those who dont conform to it... right or wrong is a perception muddled by external inflluences, i dont care much about it, even good or bad is a perception if a person robs a bank to save his dying wife, many might argue its bad/wrong but some might say he did a good/right thing, he a poor man who is uncapable of saving his own wife.... whats so wrong if he were to take some money from the rich and fat people who dont really need the money anyway its just sitting there.. intetions, should we consider them? but when he robbed the bank, whats important is taht he set in motion a cycle... he took something that wasnt his and he scared innocent people.. thats injustice upsetting the balance. and i want to bring that justice back..
i like to use my brain and think, particularly solving problems observing people, i know many things that goes on, take for example my classroom, i know what goes on everywhere, i just act that i dont, cause honestly couldnt care less of this schoolyard shananigans, but i know my brain capacity can be used for a greater cause. im just stuck in this piece of junk because right here its a "must" to have good grades to progress society demands it, but i know when im out of this junk yard, its when it starts when i start to realize my true potential when my brain capacity will be used to crack down criminals and bring the justice back to the cycle

bottom line..
must study for a levels liao :P
Posted by 火 at 6:41 PM

happy national day!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

~and thats about the most patriotism im gonna show~
lol actually typed out alot of crap but found it too weird to post haha
so anw yea
thats all:P
Posted by 火 at 5:47 PM

dumb dumb dumb dumb

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

feeling kinda dumb now, why do i always have to wait till the very last moments to realize i have to train/study/work for something?
why do i always end up shortchanging myself cuz i did not practice/work hard enough?
why am i so lazy lazy lazy? Sigh, never thought much abt going into army early, but now i have the best reason to not go in early, and i have to now:P sigh.... stupid stupid stupid!
like tht for NAPFA, like that for O lvls, like that for almost everything in my life! gah, why am i shortchanging myself, hopefully i wont do this for As.... rah feeling kinda bad now...
still im sorry...

thanks cheang for helping me so much thru this anw...

~ps: is there something wrong with blogger?~
Posted by 火 at 10:07 PM

stupid video filler post

Thursday, July 30, 2009


haha facebook totally changes everything college humor rocks:P

ookay this is so sick:P but hilarious still:P haha go search derrick comedy on youtube and ull find such hilarious crap everywhere;P

my favourite friends scene haha:P next to many others WATCHED FRIENDS AT LEAST 10 times at it never gets old:P

heres a nother funny one but its abit long but bear with its its totally worth it:P haha esp the part with chandler that part gets me everytime haha i must have rewatched this epsiode at least 20 times and i laugh everytime chandler says: "the sun" haha
heh sometimes retarted vidoes like this keep me going, makes me rember(or rather lie to myself) theres a lighter side of life, but then again you wake up and realise its the same world all together, and life goes on sigh
screw reality eh?
wish i cld
anw regular posting to resume soon:P apolgies to readers
so tired now gna get away from reality for awhile..
Posted by 火 at 8:52 PM